Dear Stepgrandfather

You were never just a “step” to me. You were one of the best things that ever happened to me, and I grieve that I only had a short 15 years of knowing you. The day you died my heart ripped in two, and although the pain has lessened I will never stop missing you.

I can still hear your voice, the way you said my name, the way you teased us all but with so much love. My dad looks and sounds so much more like you every day, and even though I love that it also makes me so sad, because I miss you so much.

I know I was only your stepgrandchild, and came on the scene so many years after your biological grandkids came, but you always treated me the same as them, and sometimes I even thought you might like me better because of the special bond we shared going to the same college. I was the only grandkid to go to your alma mater, and it was a thrill to have you visit me there and show me your old haunts and tell me all your stories. I treasure the pictures I have from those days.

My college ring is a small miniature version of yours. After you died I told my dad I wanted nothing more than to be the guardian of your ring. He gave it to me last Christmas along with a picture of you, and I cried my eyes out. It is my greatest treasure. It is the one possession I own that I would run into a burning building to save.

My parents and I are still taking care of your beloved dog, just like you asked me to before you died. She is precious, and is so loved that she has an extremely happy doggie life. She still has that matching tuft of hair on the top of her head that sticks up just like the one you had. Every time I look in her eyes, I see you. I know how much you loved her and she is a part of you. We’re not sure exactly how old she is since she was a stray, but she has to be at least 14 by now. She is becoming hard of hearing and she is definitely slowing down. I know it won’t be much longer before she joins you, and I fear my heart will break all over again when this touchable connection to you is gone.

I loved you so much, love you still. I’d give anything to have five more minutes with you to tell you that.

Love always,
Your granddaughter

~ by Stepfamily Letter Project on August 20, 2010.

2 Responses to “Dear Stepgrandfather”

  1. He must have been a lovely man.

  2. Awwww….I love your letter.

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